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Introspection

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“I earn $X,XXX per dealership. I have X dealerships as clients.”

“I’ve spoken at this event and that event. I received $X,XXX to speak.”

“I’ve been on this news show. I’ve been written about in that paper. I’ve been given this book offer.”

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The following is a direct quote of something that was recently written to me. I’ve edited nothing. There’s an f bomb or two in there, so if that offends you feel free to skip this part. Here’s what she wrote (I changed nothing – not even spelling or punctuation errors):

actually donny i give you props for being fairly slick.

you play up the “i’m a christian” part. you make sure to keep in contact with those you now “pray” for (if you don’t get it then i’m talking about those that sell porn). and the best part, you CASH in on all of this.

damn boy, do i see the next Jim Bakker before me?

you know when you first said that you “found” god (oh and by the way, where was god and what does god look like….just so i know in case i run into this “god”), i was all for your decision. you know – whatever makes a person happy type thing even though it goes against my beliefs.

then you started in with this whole ex gf thing and that just creeped me the fuck out. i had visions of jack nicholson from the shinning with him using the ax to get into the bathroom door (sans donny). you started losing me at this point because i really started to question whether or not you were really “christian”.

but now i get it – you are the true american capitalist. if you aren’t going to make money in porn (and you were doing VERY well for yourself), then you sure as hell (oops said that word – oh well i’ll be there soon enough so…) are going to make it on the extreme opposite end of the spectrum. kudos to you for making money anyway you can.

however, how many times and how may people are going to hurt and drag down along the way? don’t say you’re not because in a very real sense – you are.

i have no problem with someone who wants to believe in something – something where it helps them get through the day. what i have a problem with is fake, bullshit, self appointed, propoganda. and that is what you are doing my friend. you are USING those around you for your OWN BENEFIT and i don’t believe that god, jesus or mary, for that matter, would find it amusing.

i have read your blog, i actually enjoyed your writings even though i don’t agree with your beliefs, and i really wanted to believe that you believed what you had written. however, i have now come to the conclusion that it’s fake and it sickens me.

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From numerous books I’ve read, it seems many men have a need to feel validated by how well we can provide. Our self confidence is often directly related to our earning power.

I am one of those who demonstrate the truth to that line of thought. My self esteem is often in direct proportion to how much money I’m making. Not necessarily because I want to have money in the bank, but because I want to feel like I am worth something. Does that make any sense?

The three lines that started this blog entry are lines that have escaped my mouth on numerous occasions in numerous conversations. The first two lines fall right into that whole “need to provide” idea. The last one is pure ego.

There, I said it. I was honest. The truth is that I like the media attention I’ve received. I could sit here at my keyboard and try to pretend I don’t. That wouldn’t be true. I like the attention. I like the fact that people want to read what I have to write, or hear what I have to speak.

But what Cassie may not realize is that I do believe what I write here. I do believe the things I say about God. I do believe he has saved my life. But that doesn’t mean I’m perfect.

I know… I know… many Christians want people to think that giving one’s life to God means everything is suddenly fine and dandy. Hunky Dory. But that’s not the case at all, is it? I’m still a really screwed up person. I’m working on it, but the progress is excrutiatingly slow.

I’ve got this big ol’ ego on one shoulder that’s countered by this inner self-esteem problem. When the ego’s in charge, I brag. When the self-esteem problem takes over, I talk about people wanting to listen to me speak or book deals or… whatever. Why? Because I’m trying to “prove” that I mean something.

You might be thinking, “Donny, God is your self esteem. God is your source of power. It’s all about him. It’s not about you.”

I know all those things. Believe me, I do know those things. But knowing something and acting on it… well that’s two separate animals, isn’t it? For me it sure is.

I’m not beating myself up over these character flaws. What’s the point in doing so? All I can really do is acknowledge they exist and try to change them, asking for God’s help. The thing is, God’s not going to wave a magic wand and whisk all the bad stuff away. That would compromise free will, wouldn’t it? I’m still going to be me and I’m still going to have to fight my battles and I’m going to have to choose to accept that I CAN conquer these “personal demons”, with His help.

We’re not expected to be perfect, thank God. You’ll likely hear me refer to the following scriptures over and over and over again. I do so because this passage gives me hope and makes me feel like I’m not the only one who constantly screws up.

Here’s Paul, the man who wrote the majority of the New Testament, and the man who was used by God in such powerful ways, writing this about himself (Romans 7:15-25):

What I don’t understand about myself is that I decide one way, but then I act another, doing things I absolutely despise. So if I can’t be trusted to figure out what is best for myself and then do it, it becomes obvious that God’s command is necessary.

But I need something more! For if I know the law but still can’t keep it, and if the power of sin within me keeps sabotaging my best intentions, I obviously need help! I realize that I don’t have what it takes. I can will it, but I can’t do it. I decide to do good, but I don’t really do it; I decide not to do bad, but then I do it anyway. My decisions, such as they are, don’t result in actions. Something has gone wrong deep within me and gets the better of me every time. It happens so regularly that it’s predictable. The moment I decide to do good, sin is there to trip me up. I truly delight in God’s commands, but it’s pretty obvious that not all of me joins in that delight. Parts of me covertly rebel, and just when I least expect it, they take charge.

I’ve tried everything and nothing helps. I’m at the end of my rope. Is there no one who can do anything for me? Isn’t that the real question? The answer, thank God, is that Jesus Christ can and does. He acted to set things right in this life of contradictions where I want to serve God with all my heart and mind, but am pulled by the influence of sin to do something totally different.

42 thoughts on “Introspection

  1. Here is the missionary task laid upon Paul by our Lord:

    “I have appeared to you for this purpose, to make you a minister and a witness both of the things which you have seen and of the things which I will reveal to you. I will deliver you from the Jewish people as well as from the Gentiles, to whom I now send you, to open their eyes and to turn them from darkness to light, and from the power of Satan to God, that they may receive forgiveness of sins and an inheritance among those who are sanctified by faith in Me” (Acts 26: 16-18).

  2. Here is the missionary task laid upon Paul by our Lord:

    “I have appeared to you for this purpose, to make you a minister and a witness both of the things which you have seen and of the things which I will reveal to you. I will deliver you from the Jewish people as well as from the Gentiles, to whom I now send you, to open their eyes and to turn them from darkness to light, and from the power of Satan to God, that they may receive forgiveness of sins and an inheritance among those who are sanctified by faith in Me” (Acts 26: 16-18).

  3. Interesting post. Your blog has been, if nothing else, honest and “close to home” as far as expressing raw emotions and undigested thoughts are concerned. Occasionally “creepy”? Perhaps. Sometimes “over-sharing”? Who’s to say–most likely. That’s just the way it goes when you’re keeping it real…
    But the response you have received from Cassie is astounding. Why do the ones clamoring not to be “judged” (meaning for us to show at least indifference, or even endorsement in the name of “tolerance”) turn out to be so judgmental themselves. The claim that you are “bringing down” others with you is patently absurd. You don’t have that kind of power, and I have not even seen you foolishly aspire to it either.
    Fact: The porn industry wraps itself in the flag and proclaims its right to free speech. Billion $$$ profits allow it to hire the best lawyers that money can buy and keep the PR machine churning. And here’s some little blogger who’s being asked to shut up so that “free speech” (“free” but often exercised at tremendous cost to those naive and sometimes desparate enough to become involved) may prevail. Without a doubt, Christians have produced their share of hypocrites. But being a Christian to be a hypocrite is certainly not required, as the letter aptly demonstrates.

  4. Interesting post. Your blog has been, if nothing else, honest and “close to home” as far as expressing raw emotions and undigested thoughts are concerned. Occasionally “creepy”? Perhaps. Sometimes “over-sharing”? Who’s to say–most likely. That’s just the way it goes when you’re keeping it real…
    But the response you have received from Cassie is astounding. Why do the ones clamoring not to be “judged” (meaning for us to show at least indifference, or even endorsement in the name of “tolerance”) turn out to be so judgmental themselves. The claim that you are “bringing down” others with you is patently absurd. You don’t have that kind of power, and I have not even seen you foolishly aspire to it either.
    Fact: The porn industry wraps itself in the flag and proclaims its right to free speech. Billion $$$ profits allow it to hire the best lawyers that money can buy and keep the PR machine churning. And here’s some little blogger who’s being asked to shut up so that “free speech” (“free” but often exercised at tremendous cost to those naive and sometimes desparate enough to become involved) may prevail. Without a doubt, Christians have produced their share of hypocrites. But being a Christian to be a hypocrite is certainly not required, as the letter aptly demonstrates.

  5. I just read that passage in Romans yesterday, the day of your post. That must be from “The Message” or something.
    It says it so well. I liked what you wrote too. You have changed a lot!
    Barb

  6. I just read that passage in Romans yesterday, the day of your post. That must be from “The Message” or something.
    It says it so well. I liked what you wrote too. You have changed a lot!
    Barb

  7. Donny,

    Who is this “Cassie” anyway? Should I know her? Only I can talk smack to you. Tell her to go fly a kite 🙂

  8. Donny,

    Who is this “Cassie” anyway? Should I know her? Only I can talk smack to you. Tell her to go fly a kite 🙂

  9. It’s good that those who don’t follow Christ are so able to judge whether you are following him right or not. Hey Cassie, the flying spaghetti monster is NOT happy!! :

    I’ve struggled with ego a lot as well. If I can offer a catalyst for change, I offer one thing: serve. Pull back from that which would feed your ego and serve in the background where no one but God will know your service.

    Do stuff that isn’t for the present glory. Like Matthew said, if you do thing for the present glory, for the recognition, you will have received your reward. “Where your treasure is, there your heart will be also,” right? The more you do things for God’s glory, without personal recognition, the more you’ll store up treasures in Heaven and the more God will bless you now for it. And, truthfully, you’ll feel more accomplished and just plain better for doing it.

    I struggle with ego and this is exactly what I do when I’m in the midst of the battle. The reasoning is fairly simple: if acting in pride is sinful (which, in the way we’re talking about it, it is), the opposite of pride is humility, the opposite of sinful is righteous, then acting in humility is righteous.

    I’ve got examples, but I’ve spouted off too much already. Just for your consideration…

  10. It’s good that those who don’t follow Christ are so able to judge whether you are following him right or not. Hey Cassie, the flying spaghetti monster is NOT happy!! :\

    I’ve struggled with ego a lot as well. If I can offer a catalyst for change, I offer one thing: serve. Pull back from that which would feed your ego and serve in the background where no one but God will know your service.

    Do stuff that isn’t for the present glory. Like Matthew said, if you do thing for the present glory, for the recognition, you will have received your reward. “Where your treasure is, there your heart will be also,” right? The more you do things for God’s glory, without personal recognition, the more you’ll store up treasures in Heaven and the more God will bless you now for it. And, truthfully, you’ll feel more accomplished and just plain better for doing it.

    I struggle with ego and this is exactly what I do when I’m in the midst of the battle. The reasoning is fairly simple: if acting in pride is sinful (which, in the way we’re talking about it, it is), the opposite of pride is humility, the opposite of sinful is righteous, then acting in humility is righteous.

    I’ve got examples, but I’ve spouted off too much already. Just for your consideration…

  11. I find it funny how I claimed I never wanted to be judge (and the irony here is that I already was)! Whose bright thought process was that? The thing is, is that I don’t care that people I have never met nor will ever meet, people who will never be a part of my life in any manner, judge me. Judge away! Knock yourselves out with your rightousness.

    See the thing here is that I know what my faults are and I deal with them accordingly. Will most of my faults ever be fixed? Probably not and I have come to terms with that. I’m not going to sit here and tell all of YOU that I’m a good person, blah, blah, blah because I don’t care if you believe it or not. And by the same token, I am not going to post on every blog or board I can get my hands on via the internet to make everyone and their mother aware of what my faults are so that I can have people say, “poor Cassie”, “you go girl with finding the right path”, “we hear your problems Cassie”. Sorry, I don’t need to go that route to fill my ego.

    Regardless of what you people think about those in the porn business – oh and by the way, I’m not in the business – I have an adult mainstream site that sells products so that others love lives are enhanced – they still have lives. They are very real people (i.e., the ex gf of Donny’s) and it angers me that he can make a living off of talking about those he worked so closely with and those he HAD SEX WITH.

    If you cannot see the hyprocrisy in what is going on here, then you are more blind then I ever thought people could ever be.

    I call it and speak it as I see it. If the truth hurts (and it does to all of us at one time or another) then either do something to change it or shut the hell up. Apparently my honesty and introspection into Donny’s post in our community got him thinking enough to copy and paste what I wrote for all of you to read.

    Oh and Thomas, I think you need to re-read what I wrote and do not decipher it in your terms but take it for how I wrote it. Again, if the truth hurts then it’s time for a change. Otherwise, stop whinning.

  12. I find it funny how I claimed I never wanted to be judge (and the irony here is that I already was)! Whose bright thought process was that? The thing is, is that I don’t care that people I have never met nor will ever meet, people who will never be a part of my life in any manner, judge me. Judge away! Knock yourselves out with your rightousness.

    See the thing here is that I know what my faults are and I deal with them accordingly. Will most of my faults ever be fixed? Probably not and I have come to terms with that. I’m not going to sit here and tell all of YOU that I’m a good person, blah, blah, blah because I don’t care if you believe it or not. And by the same token, I am not going to post on every blog or board I can get my hands on via the internet to make everyone and their mother aware of what my faults are so that I can have people say, “poor Cassie”, “you go girl with finding the right path”, “we hear your problems Cassie”. Sorry, I don’t need to go that route to fill my ego.

    Regardless of what you people think about those in the porn business – oh and by the way, I’m not in the business – I have an adult mainstream site that sells products so that others love lives are enhanced – they still have lives. They are very real people (i.e., the ex gf of Donny’s) and it angers me that he can make a living off of talking about those he worked so closely with and those he HAD SEX WITH.

    If you cannot see the hyprocrisy in what is going on here, then you are more blind then I ever thought people could ever be.

    I call it and speak it as I see it. If the truth hurts (and it does to all of us at one time or another) then either do something to change it or shut the hell up. Apparently my honesty and introspection into Donny’s post in our community got him thinking enough to copy and paste what I wrote for all of you to read.

    Oh and Thomas, I think you need to re-read what I wrote and do not decipher it in your terms but take it for how I wrote it. Again, if the truth hurts then it’s time for a change. Otherwise, stop whinning.

  13. I wasn’t under the impression that he was making his living here, talking about it. I was under the impression that his job did that, that links here were more of a, “Heck, since I’ve got a blog, might as well see if it can be self-sufficient” thing.

    Am I wrong?

  14. I wasn’t under the impression that he was making his living here, talking about it. I was under the impression that his job did that, that links here were more of a, “Heck, since I’ve got a blog, might as well see if it can be self-sufficient” thing.

    Am I wrong?

  15. Jeff,

    You’re right. I make a living with my business, Dealer Web Concepts. This blog doesn’t bring in a dime since I removed the adwords links.

    Speaking brings in money. It’s definitely not something I couldn’t live without, however.

  16. Jeff,

    You’re right. I make a living with my business, Dealer Web Concepts. This blog doesn’t bring in a dime since I removed the adwords links.

    Speaking brings in money. It’s definitely not something I couldn’t live without, however.

  17. Yeah, that’s what I figured. So I really don’t get how Cassie thinks you’re cashing in. Especially considering that the ministry you are a part of is not considered profitable (in spirit) by bigger more mainstream ministries.

  18. Yeah, that’s what I figured. So I really don’t get how Cassie thinks you’re cashing in. Especially considering that the ministry you are a part of is not considered profitable (in spirit) by bigger more mainstream ministries.

  19. This is actually a response to your post entitled “Let’s Combat This Head On.” It’s unfortunately true that many pastors respond do these types of arguments with a simple dismissal. Fortunately, however, there are a lot of good resources out there dealing with them. The types of arguments and conclusions put forth in these types of works (such as the claim that Jesus was a myth, etc) are pretty common on the internet, but seriouis scholars give them no credence; they’re theories that have been abondoned a century ago. Anyway, I just wanted to recommend a book that you may find interesting: Reinventing Jesus by J. Ed Komoszewski.

  20. This is actually a response to your post entitled “Let’s Combat This Head On.” It’s unfortunately true that many pastors respond do these types of arguments with a simple dismissal. Fortunately, however, there are a lot of good resources out there dealing with them. The types of arguments and conclusions put forth in these types of works (such as the claim that Jesus was a myth, etc) are pretty common on the internet, but seriouis scholars give them no credence; they’re theories that have been abondoned a century ago. Anyway, I just wanted to recommend a book that you may find interesting: Reinventing Jesus by J. Ed Komoszewski.

  21. Cassie,
    Never met you, thinking I never will, who knows… but I love you and so does the God I’ve never met face to face but has changed my life. Your boldness is great and I look forward to hearing more about you, your life and your personal challenges… keep it up, Donny’s a big boy he can answer all your questions… Today, if you are willing I would challenge you to get alone, quite and ask that God I believe in if He’s real… I can guarantee He will show up…

    Sincerely,
    J.R.

  22. Cassie,
    Never met you, thinking I never will, who knows… but I love you and so does the God I’ve never met face to face but has changed my life. Your boldness is great and I look forward to hearing more about you, your life and your personal challenges… keep it up, Donny’s a big boy he can answer all your questions… Today, if you are willing I would challenge you to get alone, quite and ask that God I believe in if He’s real… I can guarantee He will show up…

    Sincerely,
    J.R.

  23. Cassie,

    I have doubts that you were referring to my one liner above as being the one that has “judged” you. I realize, as you said, you don’t care anyway. However, just in case you were referring to me, I want to clear a few things up.

    1. My “Who is this “Cassie” anyway?” was only meant in a joking way. I don’t know you or have anything against you.
    2. I’m not religious. I don’t believe in God, the Devil, The Tooth Fairy, or the Three Little Pigs.
    3. I have been, and continue to be in the adult industry. Although I haven’t been doing any work lately.
    4. I’m still friends with Donny’s EX, and he knows that I talk to her and has no problem with it. She also knows me well enough to know that I’m not a trouble starter and I don’t go back and fourth and start drama.

    Again, I doubt that you were referring to me, but just in case!

    John

  24. Cassie,

    I have doubts that you were referring to my one liner above as being the one that has “judged” you. I realize, as you said, you don’t care anyway. However, just in case you were referring to me, I want to clear a few things up.

    1. My “Who is this “Cassie” anyway?” was only meant in a joking way. I don’t know you or have anything against you.
    2. I’m not religious. I don’t believe in God, the Devil, The Tooth Fairy, or the Three Little Pigs.
    3. I have been, and continue to be in the adult industry. Although I haven’t been doing any work lately.
    4. I’m still friends with Donny’s EX, and he knows that I talk to her and has no problem with it. She also knows me well enough to know that I’m not a trouble starter and I don’t go back and fourth and start drama.

    Again, I doubt that you were referring to me, but just in case!

    John

  25. JR,

    “I would challenge you to get alone, quite and ask that God I believe in if He’s real… I can guarantee He will show up…”

    I’ve done that numerous times. I didn’t get as much as a tap on the window or a toilet flush for a sign. Nobody that has read my blog several months ago would be able to argue that I didn’t try real hard either. I was sincere about it.

  26. JR,

    “I would challenge you to get alone, quite and ask that God I believe in if He’s real… I can guarantee He will show up…”

    I’ve done that numerous times. I didn’t get as much as a tap on the window or a toilet flush for a sign. Nobody that has read my blog several months ago would be able to argue that I didn’t try real hard either. I was sincere about it.

  27. John- I am a Christian and have gotten alone with God numerous times and “felt” absolutely nothing too. I admit I felt frustrated. I wondered if God was just my imaginary friend- a very silent one.
    But, I can’t tell you I just go by faith. Because once, a long time ago, when I was 20 years old, my brother begsn to pray for me and I FELT a presence come down on me. I didn’t imagine it and I wasn’t feeling emotionally worked up at all. This felt like a powerful force, kind of like electricity but painless; it actually scared me because my thoughts were “There actually really is a God, and I don’t know how to act in his presence.” The thought of God being actually real is completely mind-blowing and I don’t know how anyone can be an apathetic or half-hearted Christian. I have questions every day and all the time, and I talk to God all the time about it, but there IS a verse that says not to lean to our own understanding, and another verse that say his ways are much higher than ours. That doesn’t mean you shouldn’t try to understand things, but like a song I used to listen to says, “all things will be known some day, but you can’t know all things now.”
    The reason I believe that what I felt that day was really God is because suddenly the Bible started coming alive to me. I wanted to read it and it seemed like God was teaching me through it, even though there are many things in there that are hard to swallow. I recommend reading the book of JOHN!
    Best wishes, Nancy (I’m Wendy’s Aunt) (And I admire your honesty.)

  28. John- I am a Christian and have gotten alone with God numerous times and “felt” absolutely nothing too. I admit I felt frustrated. I wondered if God was just my imaginary friend- a very silent one.
    But, I can’t tell you I just go by faith. Because once, a long time ago, when I was 20 years old, my brother begsn to pray for me and I FELT a presence come down on me. I didn’t imagine it and I wasn’t feeling emotionally worked up at all. This felt like a powerful force, kind of like electricity but painless; it actually scared me because my thoughts were “There actually really is a God, and I don’t know how to act in his presence.” The thought of God being actually real is completely mind-blowing and I don’t know how anyone can be an apathetic or half-hearted Christian. I have questions every day and all the time, and I talk to God all the time about it, but there IS a verse that says not to lean to our own understanding, and another verse that say his ways are much higher than ours. That doesn’t mean you shouldn’t try to understand things, but like a song I used to listen to says, “all things will be known some day, but you can’t know all things now.”
    The reason I believe that what I felt that day was really God is because suddenly the Bible started coming alive to me. I wanted to read it and it seemed like God was teaching me through it, even though there are many things in there that are hard to swallow. I recommend reading the book of JOHN!
    Best wishes, Nancy (I’m Wendy’s Aunt) (And I admire your honesty.)

  29. I recently had a client enter my office and inquire about my engagement with my HP Pocket PC. This was a client who is also an acquaintances, with whom I have shared personal experiences. The client said, jokingly (of course), “What are you doing? Playing solitaire? You can fool most people by looking like you’re really doing something, while you’re playing a game, ’cause they can’t see what you’re doing, but you can’t fool me.”

    “Apparently, you are fooled,” I said, “if you believe I am playing a game. I am using QuickVerse and reading the Bible–in particular, Luke. I often use my Pocket PC to read scripture, since using it seems so personal and brings me, necessarily, closer to the Word.”

    I must explain at this point that this client is a highly “religious” woman who prides herself on her outward appearance as a pious “believer.”

    “I have five Bibles,” she said. “I have one King James Version that was my uncle’s Bible. My uncle was a Baptist preacher and a powerful man of God.” “Really?” I said. “That is wonderful. You must take great pride in being related to such a person.” “What do you mean?” she asked. “I mean you are giving praise to a man, when you should be giving your praise to God!” She frowned. “It matters not how many Bibles you have. It matters not how closely related by birth or marriage you are to people of faith. It matters not how the world judges you. The only thing that matters is how God judges you.” “What do you mean?” she asked. “You need to spend more time in the Word,” I replied. “You are trying to please people, and you need to learn to please God!”

    Interestingly, I have no idea whatever what brought this client to my office, since she left without sharing this with me.

    Such, unfortunately, is the world today: Entirely too much “value” is placed upon appearing “religious”, and not enough emphasis is placed upon being Christ-like!

    – David

  30. I recently had a client enter my office and inquire about my engagement with my HP Pocket PC. This was a client who is also an acquaintances, with whom I have shared personal experiences. The client said, jokingly (of course), “What are you doing? Playing solitaire? You can fool most people by looking like you’re really doing something, while you’re playing a game, ’cause they can’t see what you’re doing, but you can’t fool me.”

    “Apparently, you are fooled,” I said, “if you believe I am playing a game. I am using QuickVerse and reading the Bible–in particular, Luke. I often use my Pocket PC to read scripture, since using it seems so personal and brings me, necessarily, closer to the Word.”

    I must explain at this point that this client is a highly “religious” woman who prides herself on her outward appearance as a pious “believer.”

    “I have five Bibles,” she said. “I have one King James Version that was my uncle’s Bible. My uncle was a Baptist preacher and a powerful man of God.” “Really?” I said. “That is wonderful. You must take great pride in being related to such a person.” “What do you mean?” she asked. “I mean you are giving praise to a man, when you should be giving your praise to God!” She frowned. “It matters not how many Bibles you have. It matters not how closely related by birth or marriage you are to people of faith. It matters not how the world judges you. The only thing that matters is how God judges you.” “What do you mean?” she asked. “You need to spend more time in the Word,” I replied. “You are trying to please people, and you need to learn to please God!”

    Interestingly, I have no idea whatever what brought this client to my office, since she left without sharing this with me.

    Such, unfortunately, is the world today: Entirely too much “value” is placed upon appearing “religious”, and not enough emphasis is placed upon being Christ-like!

    – David

  31. John,
    And you’ve given up?! Pfffffffffffffft…lightweight!

    🙂

    David,
    Love the story. Unfortunately, living in the buckle of the Bible Belt (Memphis), we get a LOT of that here.

  32. John,
    And you’ve given up?! Pfffffffffffffft…lightweight!

    🙂

    David,
    Love the story. Unfortunately, living in the buckle of the Bible Belt (Memphis), we get a LOT of that here.

  33. Strip yourself of all your money and possessions, and you’ll really get to know yourself. You want to be ‘true to yourself’? Don’t depend on material status and possessions, and meet the person who is hiding behind all these things.

  34. Strip yourself of all your money and possessions, and you’ll really get to know yourself. You want to be ‘true to yourself’? Don’t depend on material status and possessions, and meet the person who is hiding behind all these things.

  35. Hey Donny – God loves you dude. There is a book entitle Absolute Surrender by Andrew Murray. If you get a chance check it out.

    Blessings,

    Michael
    The Confessions of a Porn Addict

  36. Hey Donny – God loves you dude. There is a book entitle Absolute Surrender by Andrew Murray. If you get a chance check it out.

    Blessings,

    Michael
    The Confessions of a Porn Addict

  37. [QUOTE]
    # JR Says:
    August 2nd, 2007 at 8:05 am

    Cassie,
    Never met you, thinking I never will, who knows… but I love you and so does the God I’ve never met face to face but has changed my life. Your boldness is great and I look forward to hearing more about you, your life and your personal challenges… keep it up, Donny’s a big boy he can answer all your questions… Today, if you are willing I would challenge you to get alone, quite and ask that God I believe in if He’s real… I can guarantee He will show up…

    Sincerely,
    J.R.
    [/QUOTE]

    JR

    I’m not trying to be mean here but you don’t know me; therefore you can’t love me. to KNOW is to like, to like is to love and to love can sometimes be to hate (one in the same emotion just at different ends of the spectrum – yes I’m a psych minor).

    Now the last part made me chuckle -“Today, if you are willing I would challenge you to get alone, quite and ask that God I believe in if He’s real… I can guarantee He will show up…” – if I chant in the same quiet room you suggest I go to, will my recently dead mother show up as well?

    hahaha j/k

  38. [QUOTE]
    # JR Says:
    August 2nd, 2007 at 8:05 am

    Cassie,
    Never met you, thinking I never will, who knows… but I love you and so does the God I’ve never met face to face but has changed my life. Your boldness is great and I look forward to hearing more about you, your life and your personal challenges… keep it up, Donny’s a big boy he can answer all your questions… Today, if you are willing I would challenge you to get alone, quite and ask that God I believe in if He’s real… I can guarantee He will show up…

    Sincerely,
    J.R.
    [/QUOTE]

    JR

    I’m not trying to be mean here but you don’t know me; therefore you can’t love me. to KNOW is to like, to like is to love and to love can sometimes be to hate (one in the same emotion just at different ends of the spectrum – yes I’m a psych minor).

    Now the last part made me chuckle -“Today, if you are willing I would challenge you to get alone, quite and ask that God I believe in if He’s real… I can guarantee He will show up…” – if I chant in the same quiet room you suggest I go to, will my recently dead mother show up as well?

    hahaha j/k

  39. People are so blind.

  40. People are so blind.

  41. “There is none so blind as he who will not see.”

    — Anonymous

  42. “There is none so blind as he who will not see.”

    — Anonymous

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