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An Email From a Beautiful Girl, both Inside and Out

Parts of the following email fill me with happiness, yet other parts break my heart, all at the same time. I’ve stayed in contact with this girl over the years since she modeled for “soft core” (meaning: posing solo/alone) images. She’s had ups and downs, but is now in school and has a really cool secretarial job. If you have a heart at all I think you’ll “get it”. I don’t have to write what is said between the lines, and I don’t have to talk about some of the things that have happened in her life. In fact, I’ve removed a few paragraphs because they were very personal. But enough remains that I think you’ll get the picture.

So, I don’t really go to people’s pages… but I clicked on yours and holy shit you went into a debate with Ron Jeremy. It made me happy. I can’t stand that guy. I’ve never seen him, in action, haha, but he’s an old slimy gross porn weirdo. And he gives me the heeby jeebys. Yuk.

I was going to say, also, that it’s not that I regret what I did as far as the shoots etc, some wierdo is getting his rocks off to my picture somewhere and that is a little disturbing, but I learned a lot. I learned that I don’t have to be slutty, to be sexy. I don’t have to be revealing to reveal beauty. I was a kid, at 18 honestly, no one can make decisions like that without someday most likely regretting it. I still don’t feel grown up, I still feel weird signing contracts, like even for a Macy’s card, because I think, will I regret this later. Mostly with contracts, you can cancel cards, etc. but with something that steals images of you in a way that you later regret, it really hits home, and I think about it a lot.

I used to be a lot more concious of my low self esteem, I always made sure I felt good about myself before leaving the house, I usually wore makeup and did my hair and I liked skimpy clothing, but really, now, now that I feel like I am a good person and I am beautiful no matter how crappy I think I look compared to the crap on tv, I just look back and I think about how stupid I was. I always try to learn from my mistakes, and that was one of them.

I thank you though, for being pretty damn cool about it the whole time, you never asked me to do anything that I felt was super weird, you never pressured me. And I still have the discs of the shoots, the few that I did, like two or something, plus that one thing… although I look cute, I don’t look pretty. I look like a HO to be honest. and it’s so far from myself that I feel like it wasn’t even me. What was me, was that night I called you, and you came and got me. Sorry if I am bringing things up that you really don’t wanna think about, but overall I am just glad that you got out of that whole thing. And that we kept in touch because you’re perhaps the only person in my life that understands me in this way, with the whole porn thing. I totally hate porn, now, and I kinda did before. Thats why I wanted only to do solo non video stuff… etc.

You’re a great guy.

I just kinda had a moment and my heart came out a little.

You understand me in a lot of ways no one does, and no one ever will, because you were the sole being that shared that experience with me. I don’t regret it, I learned from it. It was something I could see as becoming a trap, easy money etc, but it’s not easy, because it’s not easy on the mind. It doesnt hurt me anymore, it did for a little bit. But I’m a resilient person, I have been conditioned my whole life to be that way, to overcome major obstacles.

The naked body is kind of sacred, even more sacred to me since I showed it all because it made me realize how much it meant to me. That I should not share it freely, that it should be exclusive. A temple.

I asked if she’d let me use her email on my blog or when speaking to people:

I hope your talk goes extremely well! Ya, use whatever you want of what I say, it’s a compliment to me that it is worth something.

I’ve read through this several times. Sometimes I smile. Sometimes my eyes fill with tears. Do you get it? Really, do you? If you’re consuming porn, just stop. It doesn’t matter if you’re a producer or a consumer, in the Supply and Demand Circle we all play a part.


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Fleecing the Saints, and Other Random Thoughts

I’m flying home from Orlando, Florida at the moment.  The GPS map on the seat in front of me says the plane’s path will soon cross the Oklahoma/Kansas border and continue slightly south of Pueblo, Colorado.

Last night Craig and I watched the Nightline Debate from our hotel room, not long after receiving an instant message from a friend letting me know that someone on a porn message board had started some “board drama” about me.   It turns out a former business acquaintance of mine, a man named “Lightspeed” Steve Jones, offered a $100 reward, payable instantly via paypal or similar payment option, to the person who could find a particular discussion thread I started a few years ago , a little over 7 months before surrendering my life to God, where I told my fellow porn colleagues that I had an “Evil Plan to Go Mainstream” where I’d become a Christian and make a career out of fleecing the Saints.  Steve thought this would be a fun bit of information to pass along to X3 and ABC, as if it would derail the message Craig and I shared on Nightline’s Face Off.

Craig’s response?  “Tell us something we don’t know.”

Because the thing is, this has never been a secret.  For years I’d rant and tell people that I was going to con Christians.  It was a fun thing to laugh about while plastered from alcoholic beverages at parties.  I used to say a lot of really hurtful, stupid things.  I spit venom in the faces of Christians all my porn producing career, and said things much more horrible than the message Mr. Jones offered payment to find.  At one point I even told my “Evil Plan” to a XXXChurch staff member during a conversation at their booth at a Las Vegas porn convention, mocking them and telling them Christians are gullible and stupid.  I did the same with dozens of other Christians with whom my path crossed during my years of ultimate rebellion.  If only I’d been reading the message board where Steve made his offer a few moments after he posted it, I’d be eating sushi with his money tomorrow.  I’d have given him the link he wanted rather quickly.  Think he’d have paid up?

There are still a handful of people who read this blog and have been constant readers since before I became a Christian.  I’m sure you remember my rants against Christianity.  Even the very night before finally asking God to take control of my life I posted a message about how Christianity was a bunch of crap based on ancient greek myths such as Dionysus and Mithra and questioned how anyone could believe such garbage.  If you’ve heard me speak, the “ancient myth” post was made during the two week time period I talk about where I’d offered God a deal, informing Him that if He answered all the questions I had about Christianity I would dedicate my life to serving Him.  As you know, He didn’t take me up on the offer of surrender on my own terms.  But once I came to Him anyway I’ve since found many of the answers I sought.  The “Greek Myth” answer came courtesy of books by Rob Bell and Lee Strobel, along with a lot of prayer and time with God.

I enjoy sharing these things.  It excites me to see how much my mind has been rewired by having a real encounter with the Creator of the Universe. In fact, even during this morning’s Porn and Pancakes event, Craig read the very letter Steve Jones paid to find.  You get an “A” for effort, though, Steve.  And I still like you despite what you may feel about me.

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The church hosting P&P this morning had a great atmosphere and the men who attended were receptive.  I love talking to people afterward.  LOVE. IT.  I can’t speak for Craig, but the feedback we receive really fuels me and reassures me that we’re doing the right thing.  One man walked up and said, “You have no idea how much we needed this!   God really spoke to us today.”  Even though we hear the same response over and over all across the country, it never gets old hearing it.

Some of the men also shared with me their personal struggles with porn.  One young man told me he has contemplated suicide in the past due to guilt he’s felt and that he’s had trouble with it since he was in the 6th grade.  A group of us discussed how we can still remember the very first pornographic images we ever saw.  They are forever burned in our minds.  My first porn exposure, for example, was a magazine abandoned in a park near a friend’s house.   I still remember the words used to describe what was going on in the pictures.  None of these things are new stories.  At a past event, one man even admitted things his porn addiction led him to do, and it was rather shocking even for me.  Sadly, for many consumers, porn is progressive.  It’s not like a person can “just” look at “this” type of porn and be happy viewing the same thing forever.  The same ol’ same ol’ gets boring quickly, and it takes something new to satisfy.  That’s why XXXChurch mentions porn taking you places you never thought you’d go and keeping you longer than you ever thought you’d stay.  Getting conversations started is a good step toward overcoming problems.

I haven’t mentioned this yet, but when Craig and I debated Ron Jeremy and Nina Hartley at Ohio State University back in October I was really shocked at how “behind the times” Ron Jeremy seems to be.  Even after filming more than 2,000 adult films, he doesn’t seem to be aware of what’s really going on in porn.  I’ve heard him mention some of the more “kinky” porn (his term) as if it’s not really very prevalent.  At first I thought he was just saying that to try to prove his points, but I have come to believe that he really doesn’t fathom how hardcore porn has become.  When told what’s “popular” amongst porn consumers these days, he scoffs as if we don’t know what we’re talking about.  I haven’t viewed any of Ron’s most recent work, but I’m beginning to wonder if he just plays the same roles he’s always played.  He doesn’t seem to comprehend that porn has moved in a more hardcore direction.  Or maybe he does and he fakes a lack of knowledge really well.  I dunno.  I don’t think so.  What I can tell you is that Craig Gross is very correct when he says the research Ron uses during debates is pre-internet, and jokingly adds that it’s older than Craig himself.   🙂

When I was in the porn world and kept in communication with other producers and webmasters on a regular basis, it seemed as though some groups always wanted to “one up” each other by “raising the bar” to new levels of depravity.  I have to admit that what used to turn my stomach early in my career didn’t bother me by the end of it, and as each “new” trend rolled out I was not in the least bit shocked.  Once in awhile I’ll hear about something new going on in porn land and it still doesn’t shock me.  I just kinda shrug my shoulders and don’t give it much thought.  I guess I’m a bit jaded.  I don’t know if I should be saddened by that or if it’s just a fact of the life I’ve lived.

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There has been some great feedback coming in via text messages, phone calls, email and myspace to both Craig and I.  Thank you to all who have taken the time to contact us with your thoughts.  And I’d like to send a special “thank you” to Craig Gross.  You really showed Christianity in a favorable light during that debate and you were definitely very articulate in getting your points across.  Thank you for inviting me along, both for the debate as well as these P&P events.  You’re a good man, Charlie Brown.  I believe you and all the staff of XXXChurch are really doing God’s work.

We’re crossing the Rockies now.  The air is getting pretty turbulent.  I’m shutting down so my computer doesn’t keep bouncing into the lap of the passenger beside me.

Until later…


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Does My Heart Well: "Porn and Pancakes" and "Uncle" Ron Jeremy

Yesterday I was in Los Angeles for a Porn and Pancakes event at the Oasis Christian Center. When I arrived I was picked up at the Los Angeles Airport by Jeff Borkoski, an Oasis LA Associate Pastor. Jeff took me to my amazing room at the Orlando near Beverly Center.

Prior to arriving in LA, I’d received an email from Michelle (nice song playing on your profile right now Michelle – I like it), who handles all bookings and arrangements for XXXChurch. Michelle passed along a question from Oasis. Since I flew in Friday afternoon, what did I want to do Friday night? What a nice gesture! I haven’t been asked that question before.

Such thoughtfulness continued the entire time I was in Los Angeles. When I reached that VERY nice room I mentioned at the Orlando, on the desk was an impressive gift basket filled with so much food I couldn’t possibly eat all of it, which is why several items from it currently sit in front of me, here at home between my keyboard and my iMac, even as I type this blog entry.

While at the church I had a “shadow”, which was another staff pastor who kept me company and made sure I didn’t need anything. The church was amazingly beautiful and the men who attended P&P were some of the most friendly, down to earth people I’ve ever met. And very diverse. It really did my heart very well to be a part of this event this weekend.

Classy. Classy. Classy.

As for the event itself: I’ve been told lots of conversations have been going on afterward. I know I spoke with dozens of men and had some great conversations of my own. God really moves through these events!

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After the event, Craig Gross and his wife and two beautiful children headed off to Ron Jeremy‘s house to meet his turtle and go to lunch. Ron, who has two bachelor’s degrees and a master’s in education, is called “Uncle Ron” by Craig’s kids.

I wish I could put into words how this makes me feel. Craig and his family have made Ron part of theirs. While some may question such a thing, I think it is a perfect example of Christians who are being Jesus in skin and loving without judgment. Shouldn’t that be how all of us act? Loving those who may not believe as we do, and may in fact be involved in activities we greatly dislike?

This… this is a type of Christianity I can dedicate my life to…

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Filling Up
After breakfast, the men begin filling up the main sanctuary at Oasis LA. Click to enlarge.


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Does My Heart Well: “Porn and Pancakes” and “Uncle” Ron Jeremy

Yesterday I was in Los Angeles for a Porn and Pancakes event at the Oasis Christian Center. When I arrived I was picked up at the Los Angeles Airport by Jeff Borkoski, an Oasis LA Associate Pastor. Jeff took me to my amazing room at the Orlando near Beverly Center.

Prior to arriving in LA, I’d received an email from Michelle (nice song playing on your profile right now Michelle – I like it), who handles all bookings and arrangements for XXXChurch. Michelle passed along a question from Oasis. Since I flew in Friday afternoon, what did I want to do Friday night? What a nice gesture! I haven’t been asked that question before.

Such thoughtfulness continued the entire time I was in Los Angeles. When I reached that VERY nice room I mentioned at the Orlando, on the desk was an impressive gift basket filled with so much food I couldn’t possibly eat all of it, which is why several items from it currently sit in front of me, here at home between my keyboard and my iMac, even as I type this blog entry.

While at the church I had a “shadow”, which was another staff pastor who kept me company and made sure I didn’t need anything. The church was amazingly beautiful and the men who attended P&P were some of the most friendly, down to earth people I’ve ever met. And very diverse. It really did my heart very well to be a part of this event this weekend.

Classy. Classy. Classy.

As for the event itself: I’ve been told lots of conversations have been going on afterward. I know I spoke with dozens of men and had some great conversations of my own. God really moves through these events!

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After the event, Craig Gross and his wife and two beautiful children headed off to Ron Jeremy‘s house to meet his turtle and go to lunch. Ron, who has two bachelor’s degrees and a master’s in education, is called “Uncle Ron” by Craig’s kids.

I wish I could put into words how this makes me feel. Craig and his family have made Ron part of theirs. While some may question such a thing, I think it is a perfect example of Christians who are being Jesus in skin and loving without judgment. Shouldn’t that be how all of us act? Loving those who may not believe as we do, and may in fact be involved in activities we greatly dislike?

This… this is a type of Christianity I can dedicate my life to…

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Filling Up
After breakfast, the men begin filling up the main sanctuary at Oasis LA. Click to enlarge.


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Ron Jeremy. Nina Hartley. Craig Gross. Donny Pauling.

Written yesterday while on a jet flying to Ohio. Gotta love Journler.

I’m on an airplane bound for Columbus, Ohio. Tomorrow morning Jason Harper and I will be speaking at a Porn and Pancakes event in Dayton. Jason will then fly home to celebrate his son’s birthday. I’ll stay in Ohio for an event I’ve been looking forward to for several weeks. It’s been tough to keep quiet about it, but now that the airing of the event on Nightline has been postponed I guess I’ll tell you about it before it happens:

Live in front of 3,500 students at Ohio State University, porn stars Ron Jeremy and Nina Hartley will be debating Craig Gross and yours truly on the topic of Pornography. Craig and Ron normally debate each other. This time it’s two on two at the request of the crew from Nightline. Martin Bashir from Nightline was supposed to have been the moderator. Unfortunately, filming has been postponed, as Martin was called off just yesterday to a story he’s been following for quite awhile. I’ve been assured the planned filming will happen in the near future, but for now we’ll debate in front of those in attendance. I’m very excited about it. When he first found out the tv crew wasn’t going to be there, Ron’s agent wasn’t sure if he’d be okay with Nina and I appearing at the debate… and at first he wasn’t. But this morning I received word from Craig that Ron had changed his mind and is welcoming us.

To be honest, I’m not all that disappointed at the lack of TV cameras. When the new date is scheduled I’ll have had one “practice” debate, so to speak. Wait, that kinda sounds bad. Please don’t take it that way. This debate is just as important without the cameras as it will be with them. It’s just that I’ve been feeling a bit nervous, not knowing what to expect. After this weekend I’ll have a better idea of the keypoints Ron and Nina use for their “pro porn” arguments. I like that idea.

I’m flattered Craig invited me to be at his side (thanks, Craig). The debate begins Sunday night at 8pm eastern time/5pm Pacific Time. If you’re of the praying persuasion, please talk to God for us.

Amusing (to me anyway) side note: I have my iTunes playing songs at random. Guess what just started playing? Yep. Turn The Page by Metallica. That song was sent to me through iTunes several months ago by a friend who was giving me a hard time as I told her I was on my way to a speaking engagement. She was warning me against getting a “big head”. I really find it funny that it started playing as I wrote about yet another speaking engagement. The lyrics go something like this:

Here I am,
On the road again.
There I am,
Up on the stage.
Here I go,
Playin’ star again.
There I go…
Turn the page.

That may be amusing, but God, I never want to feel like I’m a “star”. I never want that to happen. There have been a handful of people in my life who have asked me if I ever start feeling that way, and I want you to keep putting them in my life to keep me accountable. But I do thank you for giving me a battle to fight. Every man needs one because it makes us feel like our life means something. Thank you for using me in this one.


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Ali. Part II.

This is a follow up on an encounter I had with a man who had just recently lost his wife to cancer.

Two days shy of a month ago I wrote about Ali the Muslim (you may remember that article, because a sentence I used in it began a bit of debate, prompting me to follow up with a post about God and Allah as well as another post a few days later). Today I spoke with Ali again.

I’m the type who likes to arrive at the airport at least 2 hours before my flight departs. I prefer 3 hours but that’s not always feasible. After a great week at the Londen Institute’s Residency in Louisville, Kentucky, today I spoke with Craig Gross at First Christian Church in Huntington Beach, California, where we had a really fantastic Porn and Pancakes event. Craig dropped me off at Orange county’s John Wayne Airport 3 hours ahead of scheduled departure time. With that much time to spare I decided to check up on Ali. I hoped he was still working at the Oasis Grill & Sky Lounge near terminal 8, because I wanted to see how he was doing. He crosses my mind quite a bit. The day he told me the story of his wife dying of cancer really moved me.

As I walked up the ramp leading to the dining area I saw him. I called out his name from 20 feet away.

“Hey, Ali!” I said with a smile.

“Well hello sir! How are you doing?” he responded. Half a second later his face lit up as he recalled who I was. He repeated his “how are you” question again, this time meaning it.

As I sat down in his section, I was able to ask him how HE was doing.

“Not so good” was his reply. I asked if things were getting any easier for him and he let me know that they are not. In fact, life seems to be getting harder.

We spoke for bits and pieces of time, in between his waiter duties with other customers. Once in awhile he was able to speak with me for 3 to 4 minutes.

He gave me an “in memory” card of his wife, Shahin Madjd-Sadjadi.

He let me know that his daughter Runak is really having a difficult time.

I told Ali that I wanted to share something with him. I told him that I’d asked several people to pray for him, and he thanked me, letting me know that he definitely believes in prayer. I am asking all of you now to pray with me yet again for peace for Ali and his daughter. I know God can bring comfort to their minds.

As I sat awaiting my check, I pulled one of XXXChurch’s “Jesus Loves Porn Stars” Bibles from my back pocket. No, not to share any passages with Ali, but because I wanted God to talk to ME.

I breathed a short prayer. “God, I don’t know where to look. I just want to open this up and find a message for you awaiting inside. I need to hear from you right now.”

I kid you not!  James 5:13 is where my eyes landed. The JLPS Bible happens to be “The Message” version.

Here’s what I read:

Are you hurting? Pray. Do you feel great? Sing. Are you sick? Call the church leaders together to pray and anoint you with oil in the name of the Master. Believing-prayer will heal you, and Jesus will put you on your feet. And if you’ve sinned, you’ll be forgiven-healed inside and out.

Make this your common practice: Confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you can live together whole and healed. The prayer of a person living right with God is something powerful to be reckoned with. Elijah, for instance, human just like us, prayed hard that it wouldn’t rain, and it didn’t-not a drop for three and a half years. Then he prayed that it would rain, and it did. The showers came and everything started growing again.

My dear friends, if you know people who have wandered off from God’s truth, don’t write them off. Go after them. Get them back and you will have rescued precious lives from destruction and prevented an epidemic of wandering away from God.

Do you see what I see? Can God get any more explicit in his answer?

Are you hurting? Pray.

That, my friends, is exactly what I promised Ali I’d have all of you do for him. So please, help me keep that promise. I’m confident God can bring comfort to my friend, and I need you to help me invite God to make that happen.

I’m asking that as you finish reading this blog article you simply take a moment to ask God to bring peace to Ali and Runak, his daughter.


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To The O.C. With A MacBook Pro in Tow

The very first blog entry written from my brand new 17” MacBook Pro comes at you from 31,000 feet in the air. I’m heading to the Orange County Airport to speak at a Porn and Pancakes event at Mariner’s Church in Irvine, California. I don’t remember where I found it, but I use this handy dandy little program called “Journler” that lets me write out my blog entries for transfer to WordPress when I have an Internet connection.

As for the new MacBook: no, I’m not made of money. It was just a necessary purchase for my business. One of my clients has a website that can only be managed using a program that runs exclusively on Windows XP, despite more than an hour of arguing on the phone with tech support trying to convince them to put in 5 minutes of their precious time to set up a very simple solution that would have allowed me to use OSX on my previous Mac. Things didn’t go my way, so I have no choice but to use Windows for that particular account. The new MacBooks have an Intel chip, which makes it easy to run both Windows XP and Apple’s OSX. It seems blasphemous to put such an inferior operating system as Windows XP on a Mac but ya gotta do what ya gotta do, ya know? Besides, since Wendy began working for me earlier this month she’s been asking if we can get her a notebook computer. I’d originally planned to upgrade mine sometime in November after the release of Apple’s next version of OSX, but I can’t say I’m all that sad to push that purchase date forward a month and change.

Wendy now has my 15” PowerBook. She’s happy. I’m happy. We all skip down the yellow brick road singing Kumbaya.

It’s 7:55PM and my flight is due to land at 8:40pm. By 9 o’clock I should be checking into my room at the Hotel just across the street from the airport, then it’s out to dinner with Craig Gross and a girl from the adult industry who wishes to remain anonymous for now. This morning I received a message from her that she’s grown really sick of the porn world and would like someone to talk to. Since she’s only 50 or so miles from where where we’re staying I invited her to meet with Craig and I tonight. Send up a prayer for us, will ya?

Tomorrow afternoon I’ll be flying back to Sacramento, spending the night and speaking during both services at Arcade Church. I could use your prayers for that as well. When I take the time to get alone with God before speaking I can definitely tell the difference. Non-praying Donny stutters and has problems getting words out in a coherent manner. Praying Donny is usually eloquent and can definitely “feel the Presence,” an amazing difference for sure. God leaves no doubt who’s to be taking center stage. Hint: it’s not Donny Pauling (and should I ever doubt that fact, Wendy is happy to remind me… she loves to put me in my place).

Rather than writing anything further, I’m gonna shut down Journler and play with my new computer. Until next time, may God bless each and every one of you.

…and may the fleas of a thousand camels avoid your armpits!


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My Schedule – Are YOU Near Any of These Events?

(I have a prayer request at the end of this article)

I’m awake! I’m awake!

Of course I am… it’s time to get ready to fly to Ft. Myers, Florida. Tomorrow morning I’m speaking at Porn and Pancakes with Craig and J.R. My schedule for the next several weeks is hectic. I love it! Well, right NOW I love it, let’s see how I feel halfway into it. Fall starts the busy time of year for speaking engagements. Here’s mine for the next month and a half:

  • Friday, September 14 – Sunday, September 16: Ft. Myers, Florida for Porn and Pancakes, followed by Sunday Morning Services at First Assembly Ministry.
  • Friday, September 21st – Sunday, September 23rd: Colorado Springs, Colorado for Porn and Pancakes, followed by Sunday Morning Services at Pulpit Rock Church.
  • Friday, September 28 – Saturday, September 29: Irvine, California for Porn and Pancakes at Mariner’s Church.
  • Sunday, September 30th: Sacramento, California to speak at Morning services at Arcade Church.
  • Saturday, October 6th – Sunday, October 7th: Oklahoma City, Oklahoma for NATIONAL PORN SUNDAY, broadcasting from LifeChurch.tv.
  • Monday, October 8th – Tuesday, October 9th: Edinborough, Pennsylvania for Porn and Pizza at McLane Church.
  • Friday, October 12th – Saturday, October 13th: Richmond, Virginia for Porn and Pancakes at New Venture Christian Church.
  • Sunday, October 14th: Charlotte, North Carolina to speak during Sunday Morning services at Kinetic Church.
  • Friday, October 26 – Saturday, October 27th: Huntington Beach, California for Porn and Pancakes at First Christian Church.
  • Friday, November 2 – Saturday, November 3rd: Dayton, Ohio for Porn and Pancakes at Apex Community Church.

I’ll be logging a lot of frequent-flyer miles, and bringing my iPhone. I want to meet as many people as I can, take your photo so I remember you, and add you to my iPhone’s address book.

Come with a smile!

PRAYER REQUEST:

I’d like those of you who pray to agree with me in this request, and to pray with me for some of these things when you remember to do so:

God, I thank you SO MUCH for the opportunity to travel and speak with your sons and daughters about this very important issue.  I ask that you keep reminding me that YOU are merciful and full of grace, and that transforming a wretch like me is a miracle.  Using me in the manner in which you’ve used me is humbling.  Please remind me to stay in that place of humility.  You know me, God.  I have a HUGE ego, God, and have a tendency to sometimes want to take credit for things that have nothing to do with me and everything to do with you.  Please help me break that.  I’d ask you to just break it for me but I realize it’s something you’re happy to provide assistance with, but much of the work has to be done on my end.

I’d also like to ask for health.  Flying around the country is something that often times results in colds.  I hate colds.  I run to the grocery store for NyQuil and DayQuil at every sniffle.  Please, I ask, help me to stay away from bugs and germs.

I also ask that you open hearts to receive the message being presented at these events.  You’ve given all of us free will to do as we please, but sometimes our free will hurts others, and ourselves, much more than we realize.  I want those who listen to know that none of us are trying to take away rights or free will, we just want people to have more knowledge about all sides, all perspectives, of the issue of pornography.  It’s an issue that is huge and it’s a big blue elephant that we no longer want the church to ignore.

Be with all of us.  Bless every speaker and every listener.  I love you.

– Donny –


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Constance: Porn and Human Trafficking

When I speak at “Porn and Pancakes” events all across the country, this is one of the videos we play.

Constance is a story about a girl in the Philippines victimized by Human Trafficking. It was created by Mr. J Medeiros and directed by Sam Sanchez of Stick Productions. It was produced by Ramses Jiminez of Legacy Street Productions.

It has inspired an international human rights movement called the “Constance Campaign.” Mr. J spearheaded the movement, and has partnered with Non-Profit’s like IamComing.org, XXXChurch.com, and HumanTrafficking.org.

In May 2007, Constance was featured on CBS Evening News in an expose’ on Internet pornography.

While the video doesn’t show anything, I’d still recommend parents not allow children under age 13 watch it. It may rile you a little. That’s what it’s intended to do…

Feel free to post this as a bulletin on your myspace if you see fit. To do so just copy and paste the code, which you can get by clicking this link and then copying the code over there on the right of the video where it says “embed”.

AFTER READING THIS ARTICLE AND WATCHING THE VIDEO PLEASE CHECK THIS OUT:

This website tells the story of Constance, the inspiration for the video. It begins like this:

I am Constance and this is my story…

I was a typical 13-year old girl in my small and poor village. My life was filled with helping my mother and siblings, doing chores, and spending free time with my friends. Lucky to be in school, my time was also spent doing homework for the simple education I was getting.

Click here to continue reading.

DISCLAIMER: Don’t get the wrong idea here. I personally don’t know anyone in the adult industry that did stuff like this. If you’d like to know what the majority of those in the porn world are like please click here and read the article I wrote for XXXChurch.


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The New York Times, Yahoo! News, and MUCH More

UPDATE July 3rd, 2007: Many of these links are apparently temporary. For some reason when I click on them now I’m taken to a new story. Weird! I have saved the article from the New York Times as a PDF file (click here to download it). If anyone happened save the others please let me know.

A few facts were slightly off in the story, but for some reason having my name mentioned in the New York Times seems more exciting than any other media mention:

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The author of that article (James Prichard) met with Craig Gross, J.R. Mahon and me after the Pastors and Church Workers Convention I recently mentioned. We all sat around in a room together talking about… well, ourselves. I really liked that reporter and I’m glad to see his article make the New York Times. Apparently, the way it works is that he writes an article for the Associated Press, for whom he’s worked for quite some time, then he puts it “on the wire” and publications across the country are free to pick it up and run the story. That’s a very basic explanation, but close enough.

So here’s to him… and us!

It was also nice of them to put a link to this blog on their site. If you’ve found this blog by clicking over from one of these articles, welcome! Feel free to bookmark my site or add it to your RSS reader or iGoogle page. Stay awhile.

Nifty.

Here are other publications that ran the same story (wow this list is getting LONG):

  1. Yahoo! News
  2. San Diego Union Tribune
  3. The Chicago Tribune
  4. Miami Herald
  5. The Washington Post
  6. The Detroit News – Big Photo Here
  7. Town Hall – Washington, DC
  8. The Journal Gazette – Fort Wayne, Indiana
  9. The Eagle – I have no idea what The Eagle is, but they posted a few photos too, so I wanted to link to their publishing of the story
  10. The Daily News – Long View, Washington
  11. The Pueblo Chieftain – Pueblo, Colorado
  12. The Waterloo Record – Canada
  13. Centre Daily Times – Pennsylvania
  14. The News Tribune – Washington
  15. North County Times – San Diego area
  16. San Mateo County Time
  17. South Bend Tribune – South Bend, Indiana
  18. Wood TV – Grand Rapids, Michigan
  19. Grand Haven Tribune – West Michigan
  20. WXYZ TV – Detroit, Michigan

There are several other places where this story ran. I just haven’t been able to track them all down yet. If you’ve seen it somewhere that’s not listed here please let me know.

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Craig Gross and Donny Pauling at the Creative Infusion Conference